Sunday, August 5, 2012

An Apology to my Son


As I’m with my yet to be named Son, his giggling to my actions, responding to my voice, smiling to my gestures was so fun and happiest moments in my life, accidentally I touched the TV remote which turned on the TV with big sound, and there was news about removing hockey as our National game, all of sudden he stopped his giggling and smiling, ignoring me completely, turned his face away from me, all my funny faces and actions are vain. He is still in serious mood I thought it is TV sound that upsetted him, I turned off the TV, he is still serious, gazing wall this time.  Out of impatience I turned his face towards me forcibly he stared at me, one stare asking me thousand questions.
Questions for which I don’t have an answer but silence, his questions are below:
 What is my role in this society that I’m going to gift him, a society in which he will be forced to LIVE next? Is this society as caring and lovable as me? Is this a responsible society that I’m gifting?  At least is this a society that is safe to live?
I’m still in silence, this time his staring is so intense, and here comes the harsh question, why this punishment to me to LIVE in this society? This almost bought tears, and he continued “Am I been cheated thinking that you (me) are responsible when you (me) are not? “
A society which is infected with illicit educationalists, money launders media, corrupted leaders and worst of all irresponsible citizens. Students are getting terminated forcibly for not performing, is that a mistake of the student or the inability of the teacher or the irresponsibility of the society?  The first two are correctable and can only be corrected when society becomes responsible.  
Recent bus accident (I would rather call it murder), the concern school declared holiday to students and teachers for a week to avoid further commotion, however within two days they were reopened, when enquired it seems the parents has called the school management to open school, as it affects their daily work (both home and office), as kids are at home, how pathetic and irresponsible these parents are? Not caring for the fellow parent grief, no wonder they are not when they don’t care their kids.  How responsible these parents are by letting children to study in the same school that washed hands and pointed the contractor of the bus, feeling no sorry except through lips.  If building collapses and 10 children die, he will again say sorry and point the contractor who build it. And there are 1000 parents to let their kids study in that school. Management gets there money but parents? I often wonder that, how many parents know that kids are gift and not a sexual mistake.  When we are not cared for our children why to give birth?
 Recent Assam Violence, there were no highlights from media, where did they go? Did Cat (Congress) caught there tongue?  Why it is not splashed as Godhra riots (2002), I believe it is used as adjective whenever Modi is addressed as AIADMK adds “Minority” to DMK. Is Assam violence not a genocide? Who should answer this question? It is not the media or the leaders it is us, citizens, members of this society, but we don’t bother to answer questions, when we don’t bother to answer, then we lose the right to question, hence we don’t question the media or leaders who are left to act on their own.
Sensational news is what we all are concerned about, it is not the concern any more it has become need now, there is no point in blaming the media as we are demanding and expecting the same from media, there is no point in preaching the media to be responsible when we are not responsible, it is better to practice before we preach, sarcastically we preach but wont practice. When we stop watching such news channels then obviously they are forced to change, they cannot force us to watch but we can force them to change.   
Removing Hockey as national game is another shame, just because my father is not responsible or not performing his duties, should I be changing my father?  Or training him on how to perform his duties?  Probably I should change, that is what these incapable leaders are setting an example, again it is not the leaders fault, it is us who made them the leaders. Are the players blamable or the sports authority? If tomorrow the selected games (players) are not performing will be there a change in the national game again? If we keep changing the games will there be games left to choose?
 I feel as if I’m shot with all these questions from my son, I’m not bleeding, I’m not breathing either,  my silence is killing me and as a fuel to fire his silence is burying me alive, just then my wife entered as a silence (ice) breaker, asking us both “ what is going on between father and Son?”  My son just responded her with a smile and a look at me which just said “now my father is responsible”.